The thing about life is this… it is so mysterious and so beautiful that you need to be alive to experience it and see it. It is not like living in a dream, but more than that. It is with the sense of transcendence. Funny, because my life right now is all about frustration. Sometimes I do feel stupid, like this morning for example. I realised, I am so stupid that I feel so stupid (Does that make sense?). Sometimes, I wonder, why wasn’t I born with such intelligence and wisdom. Okay, I know that not everybody has wisdom; some have knowledge but no widsom. I hope that is not me. Well, mine is worse, I don’t have a lot of knowledge and lacking in wisdom.
Like right now, I am should go to sleep now. It’s late and tomorrow I need to go to work but I am still writing this blog, because inspiration just came through. Or rather, I just need to express myself, after a long of absence. Where have I been, no where, I am just here, trying to make a difference for myself and hopefully for others as well. But, I am just a nobody, so, some people doesn’t take me seriously.
Yet, with all these troubles and frustrations, I strive to feel alive in my everyday living. Living a life that is fully alive is indeed a glory to God. It is indeed allowing God to bless our lives. I don’t have to always know or understand what life is about. I won’t understand all of it. But, that does not stop me from striving to understand more about life. I mean without it, will life has meaning. Of course it will! But, it can make a huge difference because I am finding who I am. Then, I would dare to step into the unknown and who knows, discover something about myself that I didn’t know it existed. How wonderful it would be.
Oh life… the reality is bitter, but the fruits are sweet. How magnificent.
(PS: Just speaking on top of my head…)