Penan Woman

A Penan woman carrying her grandchild during a trip to Lusong Laku few months ago.



Torn In Two

I am torn in two,

Because of you, I am torn in two,

You came into my life, can I pretend I don’t care?

Your brokenness is more than my heart can bear,

You don’t care, you don’t care, that’s what I felt,

I wonder if you really want any help,

Oh! help me, because it hurts,

Patience tested, it hit my head on the dirt.

Unless you want your past to mend,

This darkness will not end,

Unless it became a battle to fight,

You’ll never see the light,

Excerpt from Symbolon: Beloved

God finishes His creation by the birth of a woman, born from Adam’s side as he sleeps a deep sleep, a deep rest. The woman complete God’s creative work. She represents the pinnacle of that work because with her creation, with her birth from the side of Adam, marriage now becomes possible. God in a very deepest sense, left the best for last. With this birth of Eve, the mystery of the world is unveil. The unveiling of the bride caused Adam to burst in songs of thanksgiving ‘This at last, the bone of my bone, and flesh of my flesh’. The world is complete and God had unveil the mystery of matrimony. – Symbolon: Beloved.

Know Me From Books

Do you believe that you could actually know me better by reading the book I read?  Or rather..books I chose to read.  Especially the ones that I hold dear in my heart.  I do not know that for sure.  Nobody ever told me.  I’m just wondering that would it be possible that even though that you guys out there had never met me personally, but could actually get a glimpse of what kind of person I am through the book I read.  There are books that I read for entertainment and some for encouragements and maybe to learn some life perspectives.  I do make some reflections on my life as I meditate on some of the books I’ve read.  Life after all, are full of uncertainties, but books…boy…some really took me on a journey.

My love for reading did not start at a very young age.  I know there are people out there who had a passion for reading…since they started recognising words.  Mine was not the case.  I started to seriously…sit down and read books at the age of 14, because I used to flunk my English (I am still trying to make sense how I turned from a girl who flunk her English at school to writing for a living today..hmmm).  It was a period that I inculcated a passion for language.  However, even before that, I knew that I’ve always love reading.  I just never get hold of it..that’s all.  So, at aged 14, I read any books I could find at the library; in which I became a school librarian for few years.  As I grew older, I started to pick up more books.  I read all kinds of genre, but of course, the genre I love is historical fiction.

Here is the list of some of the books I’ve read for the past years: (Just to name a few)

I Know This Much Is True – Wally Lamb

Unbroken – Laura Hillenbrand

Where The Heart Is – Billy Letts

The Boy Who Harnessed The Wind – Bryan Miller and William Kamkwamba

127 Hours – Aron Ralston

Born To Run – Christopher McDougall

The Life of Faustina Kowalska – Sister Sophia Michalenko

The Book Thief – Markus Zusak

Frankenstein – Mary Shelley

The Help – Kathryn Stokett

Les Miserables – Victor Hugo

The Lord of Rings Trilogy – JRR Tolkien

Team of Rivals – The Political Genius of Abraham Lincoln

Even Silence Has An End – Ingrid Betancourt

Ken Follett’s books

John Grisham’s books

David Baldacci’s books

Let Me Love

Human beings existed because of love and for love,

Then let me do all good deeds out of love for you,

Let me pray, out of love for you,

Let me praise you, out of love for you

Let me beg for your mercy, out of love for you,

Let me forgive, out of love for you,

Let me worship you, out of love for you,

Let me receive you, out of love for you,

Let me sing, out of love for you,

Let me read, out of love for you,

Let me write, out of love for you,

Let me be kind, out of love for you,

Let me talk, out of love for you,

Let me walk, out of love for you,

Let me run, out of love for you,

Let me dance, out of love for you,

Let me stand, out of love for you,

Let me get down on my knees, out of love for you,

Let me be humble, out of love for you,

Let me be a learner, out of love for you,

Let me be a servant, out of love for you,

Let me work, out of love for you,

Let me play, out of love for you,

Let me die to myself, out of love for you,

Let me take every moment an opportunity to love,

Let me fear just one thing, that I would lose that love,

Oh! What a terrible thing to happen,

For I would lose heaven!

The only place I want to live in!

The only place where I shape my true identity!