So..this is my second video blog. Hope you enjoy it.
Human beings existed because of love and for love,
Then let me do all good deeds out of love for you,
Let me pray, out of love for you,
Let me praise you, out of love for you
Let me beg for your mercy, out of love for you,
Let me forgive, out of love for you,
Let me worship you, out of love for you,
Let me receive you, out of love for you,
Let me sing, out of love for you,
Let me read, out of love for you,
Let me write, out of love for you,
Let me be kind, out of love for you,
Let me talk, out of love for you,
Let me walk, out of love for you,
Let me run, out of love for you,
Let me dance, out of love for you,
Let me stand, out of love for you,
Let me get down on my knees, out of love for you,
Let me be humble, out of love for you,
Let me be a learner, out of love for you,
Let me be a servant, out of love for you,
Let me work, out of love for you,
Let me play, out of love for you,
Let me die to myself, out of love for you,
Let me take every moment an opportunity to love,
Let me fear just one thing, that I would lose that love,
Oh! What a terrible thing to happen,
For I would lose heaven!
The only place I want to live in!
The only place where I shape my true identity!
On Sunday morning, I took a walk at a local mall here in my town. There I met two people – two friends, to be exact.
I was coming down from a digital shop where I met a friend. We greeted “Peace be with you”, and I responded the same. I asked her “How are you now?” and she said “I’m in a healing process…” we talked a little while and I had to rush down because my mother was waiting for me downstairs. She lost her husband few weeks ago and is still grieving, but with the support of fellow legionaries and friends, she remained strong.
As I reached the ground floor of the mall, I met another friend, my ex-classmate. Now, she is working at a local university. She said “I’m getting married next Sunday…please do attend my wedding day,”. We talked a little while and we left.
Looking at the text messages, I tried to calm myself down. I knew it was coming, I knew it was going to happen, I knew it and I was expecting it. So, why am I feeling so angry? Why am I taking it as if it was really a shocking thing to see? No, it wasn’t a shocking thing, I even resolved that I would not care so much about it. I would take it as it is and just be okay with it. Turned out it was not that easy.
I felt my fist was going tighter, my heart was pounding fast, filled with all the frustration and anger and my mind was trying to make the right decision. Would I follow my feeling? Or would I follow my conscience? Should I do it? Should I complain? Or I just leave it? My breath was heavy, I was about to scold someone, I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream. While was boiling inside, mum was calling me. What is it? I don’t feel like doing it. She didn’t know what was going on in my head, so I would just do what she told me. My feeling was not her fault anyways.
I’ve made a decision to never fight against the selfishness of others. Surely he would not care about me. It took everything inside me to let go. I prayed to God to help me. Finally, a decision came; I would just obey his instruction. Why make others unhappy just because I am angry?
So, I am trying something different. I’ve always wanted to do a video blog. I attempted few times, but I didn’t continue to do because i felt it was dumb, and I didn’t know what to say in front of a camera. Anyways, this video blog is about a trip I went few weeks ago. I love going to the longhouses, there you could find the friendliest people, I believe…you could ever met in your life. I don’t get to travel very often nowadays, so one of those few trips really mean a lot to me. I will be uploading more videos soon in my YouTube Channel. I will share about my life. Enjoy the video and at the mean time, feel free to check my posts in this blog. I know i had not been very active lately, nevertheless, I am looking forward to upload more posts in this blog.